rain delay on the playing field.. busy lady = lack of writing.. catchin' up.. here are some digs from the last week or so:
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why am i frustrated.
when i should be elated.
everything'z been plated.
outdated and debated.
things inside my head.
are goin' wrong instead.
just want to find my way.
from the path converged today.
wronged. unwronged.
feelin' like i dont belong.
that i'm here.
when my head is there.
a blank stare.
a lacking dare.
too safe.
it's 'cause i care.
i want to be surrounded..
and aware.


surreal.
un real
lack of deal
allow the sitch'.
being a bitch
crashin' down
trying not to frown.
feet on the ground.
but i slip when it's wet
intoxicated.. yet eyes wide
open with a sense of pride.. for self
i want to yelp..
for help..
but alas i'm lost inside myself.

inner workings
continuous jerking.. around.
again, we're back at the frown.
leave me alone.
a crazy day.
i want to play.
but don't want to play.
stay away
from all the uggh.
and it just bugs and bugs and bugs.
just want to work and work and work.
stop feelin' like a jerk. a jerk. a jerk.
and when i'm done
i feel no fun.
let's just be gone.
be gone
singin' my favorite song.
inside my head
and go to bed
and wake up and be me.
again.
with my best friend.


my bestest friend.
there is no end
with you and me.
i feel is just the place i want to be.

-JB. 4/25/2010 12:24AM PST (3:24AM EST)
(re-written 5/1/2012)

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